I had a very reflective experience at Church this morning. I can sooo relate to the Gospel. It was Luke's "Ask, and you shall receive; seek, and you shall find; knock, and it shall be opened to you." In his homily Father Jim shared about a woman with cancer he visited yesterday. She prayed to him, "I neither pray to live or die. I just pray that the Lord's Will be done," and he said that she cried afterward.
I wonder why she cried... Is it because in as much as she knows it is God's Will that will prevail in the end, it is still heartbreaking for her to know that her human life may be over? A lot of people may have trouble accepting God's Will for us. I do.
I pray and pray that God may hear the prayers in my heart. I am hoping that if I pray enough, my heart's desires will come true since they are not selfish desires. But if that's the case, Mr. Fronda, our beloved Math teacher in high school, would have been healed and may be living until now. I fervently prayed for his healing from his kidney problems but the Lord had other plans. I wondered for a long time why God "did not" answer my prayer then. If praying and praying are the key, my Lola would have lived a longer life and waited until I was able to go home and be with her again before she passed. If praying fervently is the key, they my Papa wouldn't have been sick for more than a year now and unable to recover fully yet to be able to work again. If praying is all it takes, then my papers should have cleared by now and I am already back to work.
But that is not the case. God has something else up His sleeve. God has something else planned. And the believer and follower that I am must accept that. Faith is belief in the things that are uncertain, right? It is belief that all will be alright and God will see you through no matter what. Things may not work out according to what I plan but that is alright because GOD HAS THE BETTER PLAN. Now I pray that the Will of God may unravel and that I accept it without sadness and disappointment. I guess that requires patience. I pray for acceptance and patience, O Lord. I know you will not forsake me. For the more You challenge me, the more I will cling to You...
I wonder why she cried... Is it because in as much as she knows it is God's Will that will prevail in the end, it is still heartbreaking for her to know that her human life may be over? A lot of people may have trouble accepting God's Will for us. I do.
I pray and pray that God may hear the prayers in my heart. I am hoping that if I pray enough, my heart's desires will come true since they are not selfish desires. But if that's the case, Mr. Fronda, our beloved Math teacher in high school, would have been healed and may be living until now. I fervently prayed for his healing from his kidney problems but the Lord had other plans. I wondered for a long time why God "did not" answer my prayer then. If praying and praying are the key, my Lola would have lived a longer life and waited until I was able to go home and be with her again before she passed. If praying fervently is the key, they my Papa wouldn't have been sick for more than a year now and unable to recover fully yet to be able to work again. If praying is all it takes, then my papers should have cleared by now and I am already back to work.
But that is not the case. God has something else up His sleeve. God has something else planned. And the believer and follower that I am must accept that. Faith is belief in the things that are uncertain, right? It is belief that all will be alright and God will see you through no matter what. Things may not work out according to what I plan but that is alright because GOD HAS THE BETTER PLAN. Now I pray that the Will of God may unravel and that I accept it without sadness and disappointment. I guess that requires patience. I pray for acceptance and patience, O Lord. I know you will not forsake me. For the more You challenge me, the more I will cling to You...
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